I’m the girl who prefers one rose instead of a dozen. I’m the girl who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers. I’m the girl who wouldn’t make you wait on her hand and foot, but would do anything to make you happy. I’m the girl who would enjoy having a…
I’m getting tired from playing from the safe lines. Two weeks, I’ve been quiet. Gave you space, ignored the fact that I still do indeed need this last talk with you. Tried to suck it up because I knew you were happy. I’ve been trying to be patient all this time.
But it ultimately irritates me, no, downright FRUSTRATES me when you keep avoiding me like this. I’m lucky if I even get a response of more than 3 words, and I try hard to keep the convo going without seeming annoying.
Can you please just tell me why you’re doing this? Give me reasons, talk to me, anything, god I don’t know, just anything. Instead of making me wonder and feel like a worthless piece of shit who doesn’t deserve your attention.
All I wanted was just this favour, but seriously I am extremely upset that you don’t even bother anymore.
These past weeks I’ve been sitting here just venting my feelings out. I’ve been so sad, stressed, upset, etc. I don’t know why I’ve been feeling like this. I guess I’ve been stressing so much about school, family, I’ve been having sucha bad day and so much more. My sleeping pattern is fucked up. I’ve been staying up late, just laying in bed thinking a lot. My appetite changed, I’ve been losing my appetite a lot. I’m always hungry then when I eat, I’m not as hungry as before. I haven’t been eating properly. I’ve been eating so much junk food lately. I’ve lost a lot of interest in things. I can’t even concentrate on anything without feeling like shit. I lack of energy. It’s just been so horrible these past weeks.
I’ve lacked motivation. I’ve been having low self esteem. I can’t even make the right decisions. I hate this feeling so much. My depression is slowly kicking in..